The Real Fantasy

Are you solely a figment in my mind? 
If I touch you, will you fade from my hands? 
For you always stood behind
Like a shadow that can't even stand 
And more recently you haven't let me come near 
Yet you say that it's my fault 
That I don't listen, I don't know how to hear 
As if I'm the reason you are so close to falling apart 
And the only way to prove that you were right 
That this wasn't all a strange joke 
Was for you to burn to ashes so white 
So when I tried to touch you, you turned to smoke. 


-anna sluder 

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