Wander, Wonder

you cannot wander without wondering
What is out there for you to find
perhaps it is standing in the sunlight
with open arms for I to call mine
I imagine it is calling me
 to come wandering in its woods
For it wants to be found 
And it tells me I should 
I am oblivious to what it is
But isn't that the heart of wandering? 
To venture without knowing if I can fly
Yet still opening my wings
So for now I will dream of you
Even if you aren't just one thing
But what I find is that you aren't real
Only a whisper that kept me wa(o)ndering. 




-anna sluder 

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