Paperweight Poetry

^ You would never say I love you, so I thought you as an old star whose light is slow to come through but you are actually a shooting star, unseen that it ever flew with a lighted love off the radar. ^ -anna sluder

You tell me to live, But is that all you have to give? Just telling me to do something without a why? But it's really hard to not die Don't tell me to live It is like telling a bitter heart to forgive It is a lot harder than you think It's out of my hands if my soul falls off the brink, So don't tell me to feel better Don't send me roses, candy, and letters Don't you know what it takes to not live is deeper inside your soul Than lungs, a heart, or liver that isn't whole? So let me figure out how to not live So I don't feel so captive In between these wallpapered walls where I can't make a choice Please for once, let me have a voice And I will live hard and deep Just let me have one shard Of a choice for a greater motive So I can then figure out what it means to live Because when I'm living in choice-less pain and a living hell Do not tell me to get well. -anna sluder

You act like a heart is a guessing game all you have to do is hit the target's tip but you cannot chance without any aim because a heart is not a game of Battleship. -anna sluder

 ****************************************************************************** You were angry, so you picked up your mother's vase and broke it, It was infantile, the childish way of how you played this part, Never realizing that it was more than a vase that you meant to split, For the sinless glass you shattered, was your mother's heart. ******************************************************************************* -anna sluder

If God makes all the infinite snowflakes not the same, And they are all ungratefully fleeting in their melting away, How could you ever think that your pure variance is only in a name? And not a soul that makes you as  different as each day? -anna sluder

I put a collar around her neck and bought her a birdcage not quite wide The name of the bird was Hope and I bought her on East Moon Way Later my father met the bird then he sat on the couch and died Soon after I looked up, I saw that all my Hope had flown away. -anna sluder

The rain runs in rivers Down the canyons of her face The whole earth shivers As she bows her head to pray. -anna sluder

I fought the fight tired * And battled through the weak * For the blush of sunset's fire * Is the moment that I seek. * -anna sluder  

~*~ If each moment was a new day it would ease the pain of the last so to have love in all that we say we mustn't dwell in the ghosts of the past. ~*~ -anna sluder

You chipped off a piece of my heart and used it to scratch your back, you acted like your love was an art but you are oblivious to what you lack. -anna sluder

There is the boy who lives life like he is drinking on a binge But the entirety of his existence is swinging on the hinge Then there is the girl who lives in the swallows of her lists Trying to control her world and when it doesn't work she uses her fists Their paradox is too polar The worrisome and the stroller But they have a difference the world has always missed The boy is too much alive and the girl barely exists At least the boy knows how to celebrate But the girl knows how to follow her finger along the line of fate Neither is better in their being in the extreme For the place they need is in the in between But people too often straddle the line of living and existing As often as lovers allow hugging to change to kissing So no wonder these two polars fell in love For they were soon heard thereof That the lips of worry and the lips of drinks Collided together at the living and existing brink So the opposites of the two extremes Formed together into the

I love you now and I'll love you later I'll love you in the in between, You say you love me greater But my love is an outlier to your mean. -anna sluder

i see the way you move as if you're scared that you will fall, i see the way you hide under everybody else's wing you act like nothing's wrong, oh nothing at all, but you cower and you sway like a puppet on a string. -anna sluder

Black ,  white , yellow , and red, The outside differences are wide But any man who has ever bled, Knows that we're all the same on the inside . -anna sluder

All you see is rusted tarnish A broken star out of luck Beauty is all you wish But you're a diamond in the rough. -anna sluder

When the world is soft and quiet In the peace of a still night Is when I come outside And converse with the sky For there are no riots Nothing in this moment that isn't right In a world in which I hide This is the one place I don't lie Here is where I murmur to the stars And tell them my secrets stored away Because the galaxies are good listeners And the moon won't ever budge They cannot read my scars And though they don't have much to say The electricity of the sky's glisten Is a peace I embrace and with it stay not judged So when I am out here chatting with the moon I squeeze the stillness of the night into my fists And press it close to my chest So that I may carry the peace into my life And I see how the tranquility works so soon For I have stolen a star for in my heart to exist Quietly, I enclose it inside of my breast So wherever I am, the night will outshine my strife. -anna sluder

About everyone but yourself and your wonderful life you had large words that were always too snide so it was funny when you coughed and choked down strife because that's one way to swallow your pride. -anna sluder

you dug deep in the ground of the West for a treasure that you had once tried to hide you wouldn't listen to me say when I patted your chest that the treasure has always been inside. -anna sluder 

Will you take me as a rose? I have petals and I have thorns For my flaws I know I'll grow But my petals will never be torn. -anna sluder 

You say your heart is a wasteland A wilderness for the broken But all I see is gold to be panned And a chance to be awoken. -anna sluder

The world flattens me with its hand Kneads me until I am desirable My whole life is planned By some predestined label Of what I am Based on what they need I am pushed and pressed and jammed Yet they tell that I am freed Into an alabaster jar Is where they make my home But that's just the way societies are Not letting us wonder and roam Instead we are locked inside Where they tell you, you can't shine Because light is something you hide You have to follow the line Of the mold of all the others We have to be the same So in lies, we are smothered That we have to be tamed I am tired of being whittled Into an empty soul And everyone who riddles Me into thinking that I am whole But I am a crusty clump of clay Living in my alabaster jar On the verge of turning gray And from death I'm not too far From all society's endless sculpts But maybe it has to be endured To know we are able to be pulped For on the other side, you can be cured By someone pa

I asked God why I hadn't found my soul mate I wanted too earnestly to fall in love with someone But He told me He had someone much more great He said, first I must fall in love with His Son. -anna sluder

i hung up my coat on the broken edges of your soul you were fast and furious to tell me I need to leave but if we're gonna heal your heart until it is whole        i might as well hang around also with my heart on my sleeve. -anna sluder

Mama always said that glass isn't always clear You have to look differently because it's translucent and a mirror We think by our own intentions, but by other people's actions So through the glass you see the world only in fractions That's why mama always said never look through a window  Because we condemn for what we see and don't truly know It's one thing to look through than on the other side of the glass Since peering through, we thing everything they do is too bad But we create a world of windows around ourselves to criticize Never even thinking how they look at us in their eyes Because oh yes! we are the rulers of judgement and not them But glass is translucent on the other side too so they can condemn  Maybe I should look at the reflection of only myself then  And stop using it as a magnifying glass to scrutinize other men And I think mama was wrong, we should always look through a window So we can see how they never look at us and never j

The first bite is warm and sweet I chew on the notes and black ticks The dynamics got caught in my teeth I tried my best to taste that music. -anna sluder

You say you're not afraid                                   of the broken pieces of your soul but you act like you are still made                              of everything that isn't whole.                                                                      -anna sluder

I captain my train on the corner of Soul Street, This station is where I launch my life I ignore my engine which sputters under the heat Ain't nobody been on my train, not even my wife You see, my train is another name for me And people normally don't crawl inside So why let anybody in, if I've got the key? My wife says she wants to help, that ain't everybody wants a ride But I don't need no help, my life is just fine So I bumble onto the tracks and wave goodbye Pretending to be all businesslike as I roll down the line But I ain't leaving to pick up coal, I be going to die When I clear town I stop at a pasture You know they always said to stop and smell the roses But sometimes when you fall too far, there ain't no cure Best thing you can do is submit to your pains and woes Back on my train, I chug to the cliff And think how'll finally get to touch that sky God, I hope I don't miss All I am is a good ol' man trying to die Befor