Becoming Blind

The sky blushes pink, embarrassed cheeks coloring red
And I squeeze everything beautiful into one gaze 
This is the last moment until I only see the darkness within my head 
Until I will bump into thoughts and walls, the world as a new maze 
So I drink in the pink sunset like strawberry flavored pop
And I wait for the nothing to come, the absence of light, the none 
Waiting just dreading for my eyes to stop 
Three, two, one. 







-anna sluder

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